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Sertraline

Sun, 28 Oct 2012 17:04:37 +0000

Has made me lose a stone in 3 weeks… a good thing I guess

It’s crazy how one minute you are making all these plans and promises with someone and then the...

Sat, 27 Oct 2012 00:20:50 +0100

It’s crazy how one minute you are making all these plans and promises with someone and then the next minute they are out of your life. All it takes is one moment, one word, or one misunderstanding to create a ridiculously large amount of doubts and pain. It’s easy to forget a person, but the words, the feelings, and the anticipations that you two have once built stays forever. It digs holes into your heart, and it simply hurts.

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Thu, 25 Oct 2012 11:05:53 +0100

elbonyxdenaya: My dream car!!!!!! 1967 Ford Mustang. Yessss...

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 11:02:25 +0100

elbonyxdenaya:

My dream car!!!!!! 1967 Ford Mustang. Yessss 😍😱💘#car #mustang

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Thu, 25 Oct 2012 11:02:22 +0100

selfworthscattered: Telling somebody with depression that you know what they are going through...

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 10:39:24 +0100

selfworthscattered:

Telling somebody with depression that you know what they are going through because you have been sad is like telling somebody with cancer you know what they are going through because you’ve had a cold.

That’s my girl… seriously this is my dog !

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 10:32:27 +0100

That’s my girl… seriously this is my dog !

I'm so angry

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 10:28:53 +0100

I just can’t do anything right despite my biggest efforts to make the people I care about happy.

This morning I woke my housemates up because I knew they were late for training at work, one leapt out of bed and got ready whilst the other went back to bed. The one who went to bed owes me 2 weeks rent, I decided to tell her to get up because the training is paid.

So she fucking kicks off and storms around the house slagging me off, saying I shouldnt spend the rent on weed

Well I spend my loan on weed and the rent goes to my parents to pay my mortgage :/

So I’m paying her bills and everything out of my own money, why should I put up with it?

I’m sick of being a doormat.

This all said, it appears that since I had my Sertraline upped to 100mg I appear to have lost half a stone.

Oh well bitch, at least I’m not a size 16 who steals food and lies about it to her mates then complains when she puts on weight.

UGGGGHHHH

Rant over

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Sat, 13 Oct 2012 19:49:02 +0100

I think I’m just building myself up to have my heart ripped out Why would he want...

Thu, 11 Oct 2012 20:07:18 +0100

I think I’m just building myself up to have my heart ripped out

Why would he want me?

We’ve known each other long enough and he never made anything of it so why would I ever think he might now?

I’m a fucking idiot.

A fat, ugly, useless idiot

Honestly?

Thu, 11 Oct 2012 18:57:37 +0100

I’m sorry this might be triggering

Why shouldn’t I damage my body?

Bruising doesn’t do enough

Biting doesn’t draw blood

Pinching barely scratches the surface

My nails aren’t long enough

But my knife is sharp enough

My skin is thin enough

One movement

Release

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Thu, 11 Oct 2012 10:36:30 +0100

The totally awkward moment...

Wed, 10 Oct 2012 17:18:33 +0100

You’re reading someones Tumblr

They’re going on about how amazing their ex is etc and how much they miss him

And I fucked him last night… and Sunday… and I probably will again…

I always said it would never last and that she didn’t deserve him, I just didn’t expect it to end up like this… In my favour

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Wed, 10 Oct 2012 16:30:29 +0100

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Wed, 10 Oct 2012 16:13:53 +0100

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Wed, 10 Oct 2012 16:13:46 +0100

be-little-bitty: youcanbethinner: be-little-bitty: fighttobebe...

Wed, 10 Oct 2012 16:13:39 +0100

be-little-bitty:

youcanbethinner:

be-little-bitty:

fighttobebeautiful:

stronghealthygrace:

curvecreation:

alyssaashleydawn:

skepsiss:

whatwouldmommywear:

stuffingkit:

makeloveoutofnothing:

What others see: “OMGAHHH that’s so cute!” “The cutest thing ever!” “Love has no limits!”

What I see: “Diabetes, hypertension, high blood pressure, short mortality, sadness and depression that follows for the other still alive.” To love one’s body is to be healthy, not blindly following the fat loving trend.

Oh, Im sorry are you my personal fucking physician? Oh Im sorry, are you telling ME what it means to love MY body? OH Im FUCKING SORRY are you telling me that MY body acceptance journey is a trend?

More then all of the other bullshit health claims I have read, this, this one gets me the worst. For the love of god how DARE you call my self-love a trend. I love that so many kind people have been able to step outside of the typical perception of beauty and love and appreciate these pictures. But every once in a while some asshole like you comes out of the wood work to blow the whistle like “HOLD UP YOU IDIOTS, LET ME TELL YOU WHY THIS ISNT LOVE AND HER SELF LOVE AND LIFE STYLE CHOICES ARE WRONG” Well Im really glad you have found a way to make yourself feel superior to myself, my partner and all of the decent fucking people who support our right to live our life the way we fucking want.

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. I consider myself to be a pretty good person, I will say hello and be kind if you approach me, I do a lot of charity work and I have a reputation for being pretty funny. Im pretty smart, educated and all that. I play music in a band, I like to paint and party and kick it with my friends.

And I’m fat, but most of the time I don’t realize that.That might sound really confusing, so Let me break it down for you:

I have always been big, everyone in my family is big. For the most part I was raised to love who I am. I’ve never really had a problem with it, until the world told me my body was wrong. Until people made comments, called me names and alienated me. Until my clothing options, healthcare and job opportunities were compromised. Oh yeah and lets not forget being the poster-girl for laziness/bad hygiene and immoral lack of self-control. And yeah I skated by on being-class-clown-extreme-always-doing-somthing-crazy-girl in addition to being a fat girl. Shit, I was even Prom Queen(GASP!) But no matter how much *I love myself* I will always have to deal with people (Like you!) Sticking their misguided opinions into my life and ultimately trying to make me dislike myself. As happy as I am with me, strangers will still give me cards with “A GREAT NUTRITIONIST’S” phone number on them. People will still automatically assume I am sad and depressed with myself because MY GOD HOW COULD ANYONE BE HAPPY LOOKING LIKE THAT. My career, my artwork, my talent will always be watered down because its all seen through the fat-filter. My boyfriend will still be questioned relentlessly about his attraction to me. I could go on and on.

It’s so fucking sad that people consider my body size to be immoral or a bad example. People really think this is the worst I could do. Because I think that the real savage behavior is the blind assumptions people make about being fat.

The real immoral action is dehumanizing someone, taking their humanity and dissolving into nothing just by looking at them.

Final summation: Dont disguise fat-hate/body shaming as “concern for my health”>Don’t confuse skinniness with health>Don’t confuse health with moral superiority. And most importantly, don’t tell me how to live my life.

YOU WANT SOME ICE FOR THAT BURN?!

Reblogging this because this woman is amazing and so very right. People try and use ‘health’ as a reason to shame larger people when in reality unless you are that person or their doctor you don’t know the first thing about their health so people need to stop pretending you do! Health is not always dictated by size! People need to go sit on a cactus and let people be happy within their body, whether they are larger, thinner or average! Health shaming is health shaming. Fat shaming is fat shaming. Stop shaming and start letting people love themselves!

Slow. Clap.

no matter what deep comments you make about it she’s still unhealthy.

And you know that how exactly?

Right. You don’t. You have no way of knowing her health status because you are neither her nor her doctor. You’re not even her boyfriend or mom or best friend. You probably don’t even know her first name. So you can’t say you know that she’s unhealthy if you don’t even know her at all.

she’s 100% UNHEALTHY and DISGUSTING. LOL idk why she even bothers to defend herself.

The only unhealthy or disgusting thing I see in this post is your attitude.

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Mon, 08 Oct 2012 09:37:05 +0100

stolen-afterlife: I love this so much. Once, my friend found...

Fri, 05 Oct 2012 22:22:56 +0100

stolen-afterlife:

I love this so much.

Once, my friend found out I cut he couldn’t stop staring at my wrists. Then he asked “If you cut, where are all your scars?” I responded with “You know, there are other parts of your body that you can harm…” He was shocked.

People do not just cut their wrists, people cut their legs. People cut their hips. People cut their stomachs. People cut their chests. People cut their shoulders. You can cut anywhere and nobody seems to understand that.

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Fri, 05 Oct 2012 22:22:53 +0100